2004-06-07 - 7:55 p.m.

RP is the chosen one who I tell all the gory details about AM and my relationship. Since she had been through a similiar circumstance, I felt comfortable telling her about it. I also knew that she'd hold it in the strictest confidence.

After telling her about the previous days activities, I came to a realization. The attraction I feel toward him is not because I envy his family, his kids, his marital life. No. I am attracted to the crazed desire he has for me. It's so powerfully charged that it has a gravitational hold on me. I am attracted to the passionate drive in people, whatever form it happens to take.

#2 took place in his car this morning as we sat and talked about the other night.

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