2004-05-19 - 10:02 p.m.

AM and I both had very little sleep. I had woken up today at 530am and dragged my ass to the gym, where I felt a surge of energy. A secret romance will do that to u By the time I got to work at 815, I felt run down. AM was completely restless and also couldn't sleep. He is madly in love with me, I am sure of it.

At breakfast, we didn't talk openly about the other night. We just spoke in code and quietly repressed ourselves. And all throughout the day behind heavy lids, I kept thinking about the kiss and how I wanted him to do it again. Does he kiss his wife like that?

She returns from her vacation on Friday afternoon, which leaves us one more night together. The plan is to go to his house and watch a movie.

I know, like and respect his wife and even though I have begun a trek into a minefield, I am not dumb enough to walk blindly through it. I can only carry this thing so far before my concious pipes in.

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